When I have written narratives in my past school experiences they have made me feel a sense of freedom of what I can do. I am in control of everything that I write. There was no required sources or talking points. There is an exciting, liberating feeling when you see an empty white canvas, in which you can write anything your heart desires. You take the story wherever you feel fit, you spread whatever message you want, and you set the tone as well. I have always used narrative writing for comedic output. I always wanted to tell a story that would make people laugh. While I still would like doing that, I also want to tell stories that convey a message.
I think it's important to understand my emotional state during the time my memoir takes place. Back then, I was a very emotional but closed off person. I would be pretty energetic and happy-ish in high school, then come home and want to vanish. It seemed like it was event after event happening in my life always making me feel worse than I was before. Nothing I did every day had meaning, so I just went day to day just auto piloting through my life. I desperately wanted to feel anything other than the null void that was my life at that moment. It may be necessary to read through some of my blogs to get a better understanding for this project. My blog post A Letter to My Author-Self gives insight on me as an author, and the post Writing Process Roundtable can help explain some problems I have with writing. Blog posts Composing an Emotional Scene with Dialogue and Symbolism and Telling Myself a Different Story: A Memoir Counterfactual are both instances where I experiment with narrative writing. You can also see the assignment sheet for this project here.